Wednesday, May 19, 2010

relentless emptiness

i’ve been here for some time now with time to think, time to reflect, time to gather my thoughts, time to... and i’ve got nothing. nada. zip. zilch. i’m empty. i am devoid of content.

sometimes there’s a break in the emptiness when something to the effect of this creeps in:

“hmmm, this relentless emptiness, i mean, i wonder… is it a good thing or a bad thing? because maybe there’s something wrong with me – like a I had a TIA or something, what with all this emptiness going on. ok, possible, or maybe it’s the start of one of those spontaneous amnesia things that people get in lame 70’s movies. ok, that just takes me back to a TIA or something. ok, hold on a minute, but maybe this just a really, really, really long stretch of “being in the moment” – a present-ness that is so, well, in the present, that no thoughts enter?”

and that triggers a little flurry of white noise, random bits and pieces, long-forgotten memories and only-recently-pushed-to-the-backburner memories, movie clips and sound bytes, and kitties and old dreams and wishes, and then it dies out and the moment passes back into relentless emptiness.

some days i get up the drive to think that maybe i really should try to think about my most recent travels so i might write something about it now. but i didn’t write about it when it was the present and now it’s the past, and well, frankly, meaningless to me in this moment. so i make my way out into my secret ocean and swim like i imagine a frog might, and then float on my back for a bit, and then paddle around in circles one direction and then the other, and then float some more.

but i’ll tell you something that does have meaning to me in the moment. the wetness. the wetness has lots of meaning to me in the moment. i am on a teeny tropical island not all that far from the equator. it is hot and it is wet. always. and while that is really quite lovely during the days, it can seriously get a bit old upon waking each morning upon a wet and clammy bed fitted with wet and clammy sheet and then trying to find the least musty, least wet and clammy bathing suit and sarong or shorts or skirt or something, anything, you have to then try (really, just go ahead and try) to slide over your wet and clammy body.

but them the sun – along with the steam of drying everything – starts rising a little higher and you find your way into the ocean and some voluntary wetness and the day brings what it will, which is usually nothing.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

just a peek

a little glimpse of my secret beach

and what i do there all day

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Saturday, May 15, 2010

one of my little friends

who lives in, on and around my shack. and steals my soap.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

i'm here and will probably be here for awhile

living in a shack on a teeny malaysian island

jungle behind me, beach in front.

power only when they turn on a generator to pump wells.

5 foot long monitor lizards, smaller bright green lizards with tails and toes that taper off into something that looks like twigs, and vipers. poisonous vipers in my shack!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

aquarium day!

z was a bit under the weather today so i headed off to the aquarium in the kuala lumpur convention center.

first a little piranha feeding show

then some swirly tubes o' fishies

then a little stroll through the underwater tank

rawrrr, i'm gonna get you!

hello, look at me, i'm mr. smiley happy!

some giant arapaima. really, they're giant but you can't tell here.

a little giant grouper action (so yeah, my camera sucks at the low light thing..)

Sunday, May 2, 2010

kuala lumpur is clean, clean, clean!

cities aren't my bag, man, but kuala lumpur's city center is pretty and green (they left big patches of jungly stuff everywhere), clean and safe.

but this? i don't know what to say about this. needless to say, i never walk alone here...

Saturday, May 1, 2010

hello malaysia, hello my honey, hello my ragtime gal

the splurge is on!

we're spending a bit o' time in a fancy schmancy place in kuala lumpur's city center.

just a bit of luxury after nepal and india...

sleeping like a king

dining like a king

and then some....

the view from my balcony

and the view from my balcony.  yep, those are the petronas towers in the center.  they were the tallest buildings in the world until 2004.