mere gurudev

krishna das' "mere gurudev" is playing as i'm doing savasana after my yoga session. my eyes are closed and i see/feel myself spinning like a dervish, face up to the sky. everything is golden yellow orange and i am basking in the bliss of all creation.

i see the the people from my past. i see their faces as i let them go; they are dissolving as i spin. i thank them for their lessons and i let them go. i no longer need the lesson of love given and love withheld. i no longer need the lesson of abandonment. i'm free of it.

finally. finally, i can allow myself to have more in my life. more authentic love, more truth, more. finally i can say that i deserve happiness.

mere gurudev